First, let me start with a little background of my childhood. I am #3, the third daughter. I was raised to always be kind and always have manners. Say “please,” “thank you,” and “sorry.” In fact, when I was 10 I stayed with my aunt. She yelled at me for saying SORRY too much (hashtagpsychologicaldamage). I even tell Alexa thank you after I ask her a question.
Well, as of lately, I couldn’t give a Crap! (sorry Mom). I am going to blame this on my recent injury. I was the girl who never swore, was never mean, and always worried about other people. Now, I really don’t care!
So today, I was awoken by my Fit Bit Alta, it vibrates on my wrist when I receive a text. Yes my friends, it was 10 AM! To my surprise it was sister #4 talking about lunch. I haven’t even had my coffee! What is wrong with me?
I’m not the girl who sleeps in! My first words were, What the French Toast! That is exactly what I said, because I am still proper. Yet, to be fair, I am still worried.
Brain injuries are crazy! They can change a person in a moment. Does my brain really need to sleep this much? 9 hours and 43 minutes (thank you Fit Bit, for making me feel like a lazy loser)!
I’m the girl who was at the gym on my days off and doing spin class, boot camp, even Aqua Aerobics with little ladies in the swim dresses. Now, Nope, can’t do it…that’s a big fat NO!!
I want to cry, swear, or punch someone! I am not sure, but what I am sure of is…listen to your body! Yesterday was hot and sunny, so I weeded and weeded some more! I was sweating and tired but I kept on. I kept thinking of my dad, he is now 76 and he works so hard. If he can do it, so can I.
Guess what, I CAN’T anymore, it’s just too much on my body. Brain injuries are no joke.
I am writing this with tears dripping down my face. Who I used to be is now no more. Who I want to be is at this moment, I physically CAN’T. What I know and what I think is, I WILL BE STRONG!
I try to be strong mentally, and try my best at helping people and do what I can. Today though, I may not make my yard perfect. I’m sorry Dad, bless you for all your hard work!
Today I may need to sit and just embrace what we have. My nieces (Birdie and Scottie) want to come visit today. So thank you Fit Bit Alta for waking me up. I have two little girls that want to visit their Boppie (yes, that’s what they call me). So, I am going to take time and enjoy the little moments and not stress about what I should be doing! I want you all to do that too!
I think today is a great day for a Tea Party!
It’s not what the world holds for you. It’s what you bring to it.~ Anne of Green Gables
OH, BTW, you need to buy a Fitbit…they are amazing and make me get out of bed. I can’t only have 2,000 steps per day!!! Oh and buy an Alexa from Amazon, she is my new best friend, and she knows EVERYTHING!!